each word you say just hangs dead in the air
and I wake myself up every time that I speak
I keep my voice low so my point isn't clear
I keep the door closed so the neighbors don't hear

you went to bed cause there's nothing to do
it's cold and it's almost tomorrow
I'm tired of having to cover my thoughts
and I lost the coat that I borrowed

when I get up at night I don't turn on the light
'cause I know this place, I've stayed here a while
I'm walking home and I'm counting my bones
and I don't make a sound 'cause eavesdroppers step quietly

I swear all the streets are misnumbered
and this lot wasn't here on the way
and the sky is too light for this time of the night
but I'm in no hurry, I'll stop to recover

I sit with myself and I think of my cells
and how I will never control them
I wish I could at least see them

I'll stare through the fog til my eyes have adjusted
and then I'll get up, I swear I'll get up
but now infrared visions are flooding the sky
and however I try I just can't look away

I saw myself hanging in front of my desk
trying to look apathetic while I pulled all my hair out
the only one here with an ear and a plan
keep yourself near with a rock in your hand

the neighbors are watching a horror movie
that's what I hear through the walls
and those hands on their window are only the trees
and that smoke is just smog from the refinery

a girl down the block calls somebody a liar
she throws something out the car window
before it had time to steal 3 am's silence
light fell from above and now everything's quiet

she hears all my thoughts on her radio-mind
so I cover my head with the ground to my face
but machines in the sky send the frequency higher
til dogwhistle chimes echo all through the neighborhood

now it's all clear and my mind disappears
when I let the last ring take me over
I lay in the grass
and I think of the past
and I feel the light wrap up my shoulders
I hope I don't get too much older

and when lights from the sky
come to carry me home
I'll be sure to leave you something